唉...呢排真係好唔開心....

係咁喊...自己''離''埋喊....冇人知...

又驚比屋企人見到....但係同佢講....佢又會唔知點....

SO咁我都係自己一個人喊算.....

E+都係一邊打...一邊D眼淚係咁流出黎...

唉...真係好唔開心呀~好多野諗.....又諗屋企..又諗下其他....

好想快D返工....可以努力咁做野....咩都唔諗....

最好就係.....做D好多野做既工...咁就一路做...咩都諗唔到喇~

就算E+我都覺得自己好似好大壓力咁....

唉....我應該點做....有時真係唔識點做呀....

返工之後我要努力咁返工....之後就''草''錢跳舞....

去遊行....我要向自己既路出發呢...

人生仲有好長既路未行...我都係岩岩開始冇耐JA~

so我一定要加油.....加油.....加油...同你一齊行落去~我地唔可以放棄~

呢幾日我發覺自己睇開左喇~

咁係咪姐係....我愈黎愈信佢...???

定係對自己同佢有返信心呢???

益係.....因為佢呃住我...唔同我講..之後比我講哂出黎....而睇化哂呢???

我真係唔知自己諗緊咩ga.....

其實....我真係咁尊制咩...???我係咪真係一個咁唔講道理既人....???

一講到呢d我又喊.....講真做咁多野都係因為你姐...

你有負出過...同樣我都有....真係希望大家唔好睇單方...而係睇雙方....

我真係好唔中2你咁...唉...只係咁小既事都唔同我講...都要''呃''我...

我真係好唔中2人呃我.....我個心已經好似.....又比人傷多次咁...

唉...我明白呢d係小事...過左去....但係我唔明咁小事都要呃我....

咁之後呢......會點.....係....你係承諾過.....但....唔知點解我個心都係好唔安樂..好唔開心..

會喊....因為你可能會覺得好小事...但對我黎講....已經.....唉.....你咁做真...我係好唔開心...

我只係想過返d平淡既日子.....同你好好咁落去呢.....

有時可能會有諗下野...但係.....之後都要同自己講唔好諗咁多...

叫自己放低d......要比自由佢.......我唔想佢覺得我咁......唉........

不過呢幾日同你都冇嘈.....我都係咁控制自己....你看到嗎.....???

我好耐冇打xanga喇....打返先....

之前同佢發生左d野.....不過e+冇野~

但係之前果d野....仲好似時時都浮現自己既面前....

感覺就愈黎愈對自己冇信心....係對自己.....

好唔知點.....唉...可能之前......太多野喇......

搞到自己好唔安心呢.....試過會有淡.....的感覺....

但係....真係好希望之後愈黎愈好....會好好咁落去~

其實....經過呢次.....已經好返d ga喇~

唉....我有改到ga....你係唔係睇唔到......

好想好想好想......一路落去.......唔會再有呢d事發生....

希望耐左....慢慢咁明白對方.....就唔會發生呢d野喇~

希望老公同佢爸爸...媽媽飲茶...食飯....會開開心心喇....

好累呀....又同呀諾諗舞.....不過我地2個都係好難既...

都係見面果陣.....諗...好好多....講真係有d難講...哈哈...

都好耐冇見個衰仔喇~希望你地加油喇~哈哈~~~

唉...好想快快快返工呀.....

唔返工冇錢呀...電話都cut埋.....唉...

唔好意思喇各位朋友仔...忍耐下喇~

遲d就開返ga喇~我冇轉到電話呢...哈....

呢排都係同老公一齊.....

呢排m came....搞到好''紋''個人....再加上好多野煩...

不過sor呀老公...搞到係咁發你脾氣...真的對不起喔...

仲有....我同屋企人嘈....就唔關你事....唔好怪自己~

我屋企人仲係中2你的....佢地仲係覺得你好的....

我同佢地都冇野lu....你可以放心....^^

哈...原來......慣左佢係我身邊....

佢一唔係到....就覺得好唔慣....

佢一唔係到.....又會好掛住佢呢...哈....

只要佢一係我身邊...我就會覺得好安全....

好似今潮早...訓訓下....唔見左佢.....

係咁望佢...d野仲係唔係到....我好驚佢走左返工....

之後見到佢d野係到...就安心.....

不過...果一刻.....驚到差d喊.....

好神奇.....唔知點解會咁.....哈....

不過佢返返入黎room....我就係咁攬住佢....哈哈哈......

2009.5.22.

呢日....同....老公發生左d事....

之後冇野....不過佢就好唔開心...

佢又因為公司既野....同埋我...so佢好唔開心...

公司就係咁ga喇~冇辦法ga喇...唉....

打比佢果陣...聽到佢把聲.....心都痛埋~

把聲...就黎喊咁...又好似出唔到聲....

問左佢公司點.....佢話...如果佢即刻講咩事比我聽...

佢驚佢自己會喊出黎....今晚先同我講....

之後我地就收左線...到左7點49分...佢sd左個信息黎...

話好唔開心...好想見我...我睇完個信息...

就知道佢係想喊....但返工忍住....so..我就叫佢過黎我到....

佢放左工...佢自己過黎我到....仲buy左燕窩比呀嫂.....

哈哈....佢仲buy左好多我好中2食既野.......好開心.....

我記得好耐既一次同佢講過.....

我鐘意食...''pocky''既果隻百力支...但係士多啤梨.味...

我話果陣返工係咁buy黎食...不過e+冇哂...搵唔返...

果一次....我只不過係諗起講出黎....點知佢仲記得....

佢真係好細心.....佢仲buy左一大盒比我食.....

咁都比佢搵得返....佢仲buy左態仔餅....

我以為佢buy左一盒....點知佢buy左4盒唔同味比我...

果一刻....我真係好感動...好開心....

雖然唔係d咩野...但係對我黎講已經好足夠....

因為我自己估唔到佢會仲記得....

佢唔開心...仲要佢buy野比我哄我開心...多謝你呀老公...

之後就同佢傾計....係咁攬住佢....

我知道呢個時候佢係好需要我既安慰....

我知道佢好辛苦...好唔開心....見到佢...真心痛....

不過之後傾完都冇咩野~

但係我地訓係到傾返d我地既野....

果一刻我真係比佢感動到喊左出黎...

因為我呢排唔知做咩....

冇咩安全感.....又唔開心..又同佢嘈得多...

但....佢講左d野....令我有返信心同安全感...

我真係冇聽過佢咁講過....諗返起...都想喊天....

老公...多謝你呀~我真係好開心...聽到你咁講...

你一d都唔傻....因為我自己都係咁諗過......

我亦都知你為我做左好多野....我係知...感受到...

以後開始....我唔會再講果d說話.......哈....

希望你返工唔好再有唔開心既事.....

佢地鐘意點諗咪點諗....最重要係你自己點諗....

如果你真係覺得你做得唔開心....咪轉工..唔好做.....

你點都好...我都會係你身體的....哈哈~

老公buy比我d野食....好好味....

幫佢地影左全家福....幾可愛....

今日出去d-mop諗住見工喇~點知原來冇天~

又要等下一次先去見喇~

之後搵左老公食飯....哈~3日冇見佢lu~

見到佢...好開心呀....但係唔知做咩好似唔同左d野咁.....

唔知會唔會係呢排嘈得多呢....唉....唔想再嘈~

再嘈落去既話...就會好傷感情.....

我明白到我做左d野令佢擔心....唔開心....

係我唔岩.....但....比時間我....

我真係想唔嘈.....日日都串下嘴.....開開心心咁過....

但....呢幾日...係咩事呢....

再嘈落去....我係咪真係會淡呢......唉......

咩都唔知呀....個心好唔知點.....好似好冇安全感咁.....

自己會驚.....驚既時候.....自己就係到喊.....

我叫我自己唔好喊.....愈叫就愈喊...點解???

其實...呢幾日都唔太開心ga....

有時同佢傾傾下.....電話.....佢d態度又唔知點....

佢一變...我就會好驚...之後自己就會喊...好唔開心~

不過有時佢都唔知....可能佢講得岩喇.....

人人都有脾氣...態度等.....係...係一定有.....

但係....對住女朋友係咪一d都唔可以收下???

因為.....佢一咁樣...我就會好驚~好冇安全感....

今日同佢傾電話果陣....唔知佢講左d咩.....我又喊.....

有時可能都唔太關佢事既....可能係我自己諗多左....

其實佢d脾氣已經好好ga喇~只係佢態度....

我知佢好多野都諗我先...佢都對我好好...

黎我home既時候...我搞到佢成日都咁夜訓...又累....sorry呀~

第2日仲要返工天~知佢返工好辛苦都要咁樣~

又唔聽佢話......唔知係咪之前慣左自己一個人....so先咁唔聽佢話呢~

但...我會慢慢去接受的.....因為我要做個盡責既女朋友呢...哈...

老公多謝你今日既大腸腸....呀b食得好開心呀....

我冇食到呀~哈....因為唔捨得開黎食呀~

我偷食呀B果D.....WA~KA~KA~KA~好奸天....

好感謝你對我的''不離不棄''...對我的''愛''....還有''承諾''.....

我會好好''珍惜''你為我流過的淚''.....THX~老公...好MISS你呀....哈哈.....